cocoaandbutter:

There’s something about being with someone who makes you feel like everything is right in the world. Like you could come home after a long day in school and he’s right there, sitting on your front steps, smiling as you walk up the driveway. He’s the guy you fall asleep with while watching a bootleg copy of a comedy kung-fu movie, your head is on his lap and his hands are on your shoulder and in your hair. He’s the guy who almost gets hit by a falling branch but gets pulled away by his best friend just in time because he was too preoccupied with sending you messages wishing you a good night.

There’s something about losing that person but being okay. Like you’ve lost a part of your heart but it’s already healed and although you know it’ll never beat the same way, you’ve also gotten a part of yourself back somehow. One day you’re just sitting there and you look back at everything and you get to say to yourself “I wouldn’t change anything” and you know in the deepest parts of your soul that it’s true.

There’s something about spending time with a person who quickly becomes the most important one in your life and making it through the loss without bitterness and regret. It’s amazing how peace envelopes you when you think about how much you loved him and how you treasure your time with him no matter how short it was because you know he was in your life for a reason and you both grew up and grew out but heading in different directions and there was nothing wrong with going through life apart because your time together was over. And although you knew that your love wouldn’t just disappear in an instant, you took everything in stride, and now, years later, you’ll always think of him as the first boy you ever, truly, loved and the first boy who broke your heart. And that’s okay.